From the phone while waiting for the monsoon to stop....

[captainsblog]

And me, with no umbrella. Took it to court in case it rained; of course it didn't, so I left it there:P

I'm understandably distracted: Tasha had her first seizure in months last night. A bad one. I missed it, hearing from an upset Eleanor in the middle of it while stuck in an after-hour 90 construction zone. Tasha was still disoriented and panting when I finally made it, but we got her to settle a bit past 9.

The overnight wasn't too different from her recent wakey-barky patterns, but she's not herself- unlike the first seizure, which she seemed to shake off pretty quick. Whenever she's awake, she's panting and seems distracted. The rest of the time, she's out cold, sometimes with her eyes open.

As are ours. After months of patience and prayer, it seems time. The kids know, and we're all clear after midday on Tuesday. Just have to talk to the vet about it

She still has her appetite, and still looks as beautiful as ever- this was in May:

It will be one of the hardest days ever, but we've given her close to 13 years of unconditional love, and we have no doubt- none- that she still knows that, even if only on a low-conscious level now.

Thanks to all who have left words of kindness with us, here or elsewhere. Your comforting words mean the world right now.

Comments

[greenquotebook.livejournal.com]

If it is of any comfort, I have seizures myself and can say with near-certainty that they are more stressful to you than to her. There's a good chance that she feels nothing during them and has no memory of them afterwards. Perhaps a vague feeling of, "Hmm... I think I missed something here", but that's probably it. (((HUGS)))

[captainsblog.livejournal.com]

That was how it seemed the last time. She just walked it off. This is now over 12 hours later and she's still not right.

We've talked to the vet, who agrees. It's time.

[greenquotebook.livejournal.com]

Larger seizures take longer to recover from, but even then, there's no memory of the event. I once lost six hours due to a gran mal seizure.

I'm so sorry that you're losing a beloved pet. (((HUGS))) again.

[thanatos-kalos.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: Hopefully the vet will be able to sort her out. :)

[captainsblog.livejournal.com]

Talked to her. She's recommending we end the suffering- and it is that. Especially for her. She can't climb, navigate, hear, and increasingly just seems out of it. We want to remember the pup who fell in love with us- and us back.

[thanatos-kalos.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: I think your vet is probably right. I'm sorry for your loss. Can I help at all?

[oxymoron67.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry.

[elbiesee.livejournal.com]

She was as lucky to have you guys as you were to have her.

{{{{{Hugs}}}}}

[symian.livejournal.com]

13 years, unfortunately, is a long time in the life of a dog. I would put her to sleep. And, also, I wish we'd think the same about people, because sometimes life is too hard and you should not force one to live past the point of enjoyment of life.